Reflection

12:05pm: Loose Change 2nd Edition Recut

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12:07pm: so i think i was sick or something yesterday, b/c i slept unil 12:00, didn't feel well, and i was just not normal...oh well i feel better now.

so oh my god i leave for widji at like 8 o'clock on thursday so that means i have like 65 hour until i leave....wow that is awesome. that also means i have a lot to do in 65 hours. oh well

SARA we need to get together soon because i have your present...nothing its nothing to spical but i like it.

One the birdy front: cheif is learning how to sing twinkle twinkle little star and know a bunch of other stuff, and no-no has been unoffically re-named Maggie. she is content just to sit on my shoulder and watch t.v. rather than lean how to sing.

lol thanks sara and family they are great!

"love and gratitude"
laura

9:30pm: first ten song that come up....
1. the rockafeller skank - fatboy slim
2. The dregs of birch - the duhks
3. I feel fine - the beetles
4. Transatlanticism - death cab for cutie
5. Tive Razáo - seu jorge
6. Paloma - carbon leaf
7. Dimension - wolfmother
8. no time to cry...i dont think i have ever heard this song before...hmmmm...Sara did you give it to me?
9.fuck it (dont want you back) - eamon
10. fiore de la cittá - seu jorge

hmmm....cool...i guess

"love and gratitude
laura

3:12pm: lisa lesson
ihad my first lisa lesson today. Everone at the barn has been taking thses lessons with this really good experienced dressage trianer. well, todya was my first one and in the past our dressage sucks, becuase we both hate it but i thought i can only get better. Well lisa loved millie. She was so thrilled at how soft and gental and "adorable" he was. I was so suprosed and really excited. i am going to love lessons with her. ther are so much fun...it think that is the first time i have ever said a dressage ride was fun, ever! well bad to the home work...english final tomorrow moring! oh boy!
"love and gratitude"
laura

11:25am: Invalid video URL.

1:26pm: so my dad quite smaoking a long time ago...for my mom. however i just found out that he chews tabaco. Yuck. it is totally discusting and bad for you and bad for yoiur teech but he doesnt want me to know and he doesnt want any one to know...it is so gross and really makes your teech smell bad. I want to tell him to stop but cant.

things are also getting serious with his lady friend sue who he met through e-harmony. like i love her and everything but he gave a little to much info the other night...while we were eating dinner. he said that she could still have babies so he made so he couldnt. YUCK i did not want to know that and niether did the person reading this but there you go. so they are deffinatly doing it and i just dont want to think about that.

in other news i still cant decide about the whole tatoe thing...like i know i wat to get one but they alway look so trashy and i know that i want it to say love and gratitude but i just dont know any thing else....ARRRRGGGGG. so i just dont know what to do about that either. oh well, it will come to me.
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ttyl
laura

11:39am: SARA

10:16am:

L	Light
A	Ambitious
U	Unreal
R	Responsible
A	Accurate

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9:34am: dunno what the subject is
Just under a week of school left and life is just peachy...or not...not only I December but also I feel lie crap because I think I am getting sick again.

I was in Kentucky 2 weeks ago and Millie was rearing, bucking, and kicking...which if you know my Millie he is not that kind of horse, he thinks it is to much work to act that way.... then on cross country we had to run outs, and we almost couldn’t get through the course.

This last weekend I had him at carriage house show and our dressage was good with a score of 33.5 and then we went for our stadium. It looked like a BBN course so I wasn’t worried however after our start circle (which had a beautiful canter) he approched the first jump and refused it before we had even crossed the start flags. We made it to jump 5, but barely, at which he started to take off through better of it and came down again in between the two parts of an oxer. Again, if you know Millie you know that this is not how Millie is jumping and that he has something else going on.

So until the 13th at 10 am Millie will not be able to jump and he is only going to be doing dressage and only 1 or 2 times a week. If we go to the vet on the 13th and he has a lameness problem I don’t know what I will do. Think positive thoughts everyone...lord knows we need them.

In other news I jut aced the first part of my Spanish final and OMG I leave for Widji in 10 days. I cannot wait. My entire group from last year is going to be on the bus plus Patty Dana so it is going to be a party…basically.

“Love and Gratitude”
Laura

7:07pm: so otter creek horse show went ok...i was juist dumb and made a dumb mistake and droped out of first into sixth. what ever it was good warm up for this weekend. I am in kentucky right now waiting for my events to start and just hanging out...the weather has been beautiful.

this is one of my last events ever at novice level jumping...which is 2' 11"....i just have this weekend, next weekend, then i leave for widji, and then one event at novice AND THEN MY FIRST TRAINING LEVEL SHOW...OH MY GOD.

It wasnt even my idea to move up but Todd was like you are so ready to move up and millie is getting bored. like training level jumps are set at 3'3" which is not that much differnt but it feels a lot differnt because they have you jumoing a lot harder stuff and the horses just jump differntly.

that will be so much fun!

any way...pizza should be here soon..i hope.

"love and Gratitude"
ttyl
Laura

P.S.
So big dicision...should i get a tatoe or not.
my dad already told be he would give consent...i thought i would do a memorium ( is that a word )
to my mom...it would say "love and gratitude"
but then i have to decide where to get it, where is a safe place, if i want a design with it, and everything else...
any imput?

laura

11:07pm: hmmm,

You Have A Type A- Personality

You are one of the most balanced people around Motivated and focused, you are good at getting what you want You rule at success, but success doesn't rule you. When it's playtime, you really know how to kick back Whether it's hanging out with friends or doing something you love! You live life to the fullest - encorporating the best of both worlds

so justin called and i am talking to him lol

12:44pm: " i wish you could buy a college degree online"
"yay Gabe wins the I'm an ass hole award...Yay"

~laura

1:20pm: yay
" i wish you could buy a college degree online"
"yay Gabe wins the I'm an ass hole award...Yay"

~laura

1:27pm: i love you
Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize - we're floating in space -
Do You Realize - that happiness makes you cry
Do You Realize - that everyone you know someday will die

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - Oh - Oh - Oh
Do You Realize - that everyone you know
Someday will die -

And instead of saying all of your goodbyes - let them know
You realize that life goes fast
It's hard to make the good things last
You realize the sun doesn't go down
It's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Do You Realize - that you have the most beautiful face
Do You Realize

Luara

10:51pm: damn...
I hate april...i can not come up with one good thing about this month...sorry to all who were unfortunat enough to be born during this month.
4 days before the one year anaversery of my moms death my puppy gets run over and killed, then its her one year anaversery, then 2 weeks later i had to make another one of the harder decisions of my life so far.

I came home from school in a great mood and saw that my horse was laying down, but she has bad joints so it is normal for her to lay down a lot. but after several hours she still hadent gotten up. So i went down to see if she was O.K. WHen i got down there she tryed to get up about 3 times and then she just gave up, we could push and pull and she just wouldnt try to get up. So we called the vet. When he came out her gave her a pain killer and anti-inflamatory drug to help her stand but she still would try to get up. her breathing started to get shallow, her gums started to turn gray, and her eyes only opened half way. After and hour of talking to her and listening to what she was trying to tell me i made the dicission to put her to sleep. i dont believe in taking life away but that was before i was in the situation where i had to. when i really listened to what she was asking me, she wanted to go to where her life long love was...her mate who died earlier this year. she wanted to end the pain of bad legs, and slip away. i hate the idea of the fact that i just killed my horse but at the time i had no choice.

we all have free will, the power to choose what we think is right or wrong. which means that sometime we are going to make a mistake, i hate the fact that i dont know wether it was the right choice to let her go or if she was meant to be on this earth for another year. I dont think that people should have the power to take life away but in this day and age we do. There is so little that we really know that we cannot posibly know when it is right to take another living beings life away. some people might not consider a horse being put to sleep a horrible thing but Nancy was a friend of mine and will miss her terrably.

they say that "april showers bring may flowers" but i just never realized the april showers meant tears...at least that is my new interpretation of the saying. why must some people be having the best year of thier life while others are having the worse year of thiers.

The value that I hold closest to my heart is still of a strong, optimistic, positive attitude. It is my firm belief that even in the face of the worst situation a positive attitude can affect the ending of any story. I have always had this mindset and at the end of the hardest year of my life I can say that my faith in a positive attitude has been tested and that it is still strong.

i dont know what positive thing will come out of the deaths of my mom, buddy, hannah pearson, beli, and nancy. But some where down the line i will know why i have lost so many friends in just one year.

i hope that others are having a better night then i am and wish you all
"love and Gratitude"

~Laura

9:53am: happy days
Happy Easter Everyone
Today is 1 year and I am going to make it a good one-year, I will eat breakfast, enjoy the candy from grandma, and then go down to the beach and relax.
I hope you all are having a very happy Easter.
“love and gratitude”
laura

3:35pm: hmmm....
I think I am ready to update about this last week:
For me if was very difficult. I was going along just fine on Monday and doing well for most of Tuesday. Then on the way to my dads’ b-day party, we must have been in a hurry because my dad flew out of the driveway at 40 plus miles an hour. Time and again my mom had told him that one time he would hit a dog…well on Tuesday he did. He ran over top of my puppy. Minnie-mouse, our little dog, likes to bit the tires and beli was protective of her so she would try to stop her by going between the tires and Minnie, when my dad turned the corner beli got caught under the tire. The truck rolled over top of her and she broke her back. She tried bravely to get out of the road and struggled until she passed away. But that wasn’t the hardest part of the night after my dad hit her he started hitting himself, telling himself that he was a piece of crap, and crying. I don’t know how many people have seen there dad doing that while your puppy dies in your lap but I have to say that this year has shown me things that I would have preferred to never see.

It has always been my belief that a positive outlook on life can change out comes. I believe that there is not a single situation that doesn’t have a silver lining. And if a situation doesn’t have a silver that’s apparent at the time it is my firm belief that some day we will see it.

Though I most certainly cannot see the silver lining to this week I guess in a way it has made a bigger person. Tomorrow will be one year since my moms’ death and 5 day since my puppies’ death. I know that tomorrow will be though but I know that I have made it through worse and that I will make it through tomorrow.

I think that sometimes life makes you grow up all of a sudden and sometimes life is unfair. But if I would have spent this last year thinking about this alone I don’t know where I would be today. But I do know that I would be in an entirely different state of mind.

Laura

9:15pm: what a horrible day
i started out the moring in a traffic jam on the way to the dentist, got there...had a wonderful visit...lol.
then went shopping which was nice, got asked out by someone i have never met, and then got home in time to go to dinner at my aunts house. but on the way there my dad was pulling out the drivway and run over my puppy... about a minute later she died. i dont feel like updating right now.
laura

11:02am: lol it says that i will marry justin

What if...
Okay so name 10 people
1:	sarah
2:	justin
3:	celina
4:	david
5:	sofia
6:	todd
7:	esme
8:	jake
9:	kirsten
10:	aimee
Alrighty. Now, what if....
Number 1 was really your mother ?:	"how the hell is a 15 y.o. my mother..."
Number 2 was who you were going to marry?:	oh my...i guess it makes some sense...thats all that can be said...lol
Number 3 got turned into a frog?:	i would kiss it to turn it back into Sarah
You and number 4 got drunk and madeout?:	i think that some how this made sence...no matter how wierd it was
You and number 5 woke up in the same bed and didnt remember how or why?:	um....
Number 6 moved to the other side of the world?:	i would move to the other side of the world with him to keep training my pony
You found out that number 7 is a man?:	i would have never guessed...know i know why she wanted me to go to Fl. lol
You caught number 8 in a polkodotted thong?:	may be they help under riding pants...other wise...hes just that kool
Number 9 confessed their love for you?:	"what r u on you love that matt kidd...lol"
Number 10 kissed you?:	i thought you might be gay but lets just be best buds
Number 1 just started sniffing you?:	ICE CREAM
You found out that number 2 was doing drugs?:	So thats why you call me ever night
Number 3 could fly?:	ask her to teach me...may be we could fly to never land
Number 4 was pregnant?:	that my friends would be a very serious problem and big achievement
Number 5 told you that they were never going to see you again?:	would wonder if she took one of my jokes all wrong
Number 6 ate YOUR cookie?:	he should...i have never seen anyone so skinny
You and number 7 went to the zoo?:	that sounds about right but it would morre likly be the barn
Number 8 lied to you?:	just jealous that my horse and i beat him
Number 9 turned into a coconut?:	i would ride her horse for her because he is awesome then turn her back
You and number 10 were deserted on an island?:	we would play cast away lol it would be fun
You and number 1 went to the moon?:	we would most definately have to bring ICE CREAM and make sure the thermomostat was working
Number 2 got a job?:	he has a job...coaching hockey or something like that.
Number 3 got hurt badly in an accident?:	i would quit school and stay with her every minute i could. i would do anything for her
Number 4 needed help with a problem but you were going out?:	screw going out i have my whole life but only a moment on company of true friends.
Number 5 was sad?:	find out what was wrong and do my best to fix it
Number 6 was being a super-bitch?:	um....i dont think todd can be a bitch...but it might be a funny change
Number 7 was randomly in your house one morning?:	that was a long drive...lets go shopping
You went to take a shower and 8 was in your bathroom?:	umm..hi how r u and what are you doing in my bath room its a mess.
Number 9 drank waayy too much at a party?:	give her an advill and a hug...wont be the last time this happens.
Number 10 ran away from home?:	its about time...i love home but at home at 24 is a bit rediculous!
Number 1 showed up at your window at 3 AM to escape their house?:	we could start the road trip that we have been planning and just get away
You and 2 were walking down the street and saw an eskimo?:	he would just be looking for a reason to make out...lol
Number 3 came to your house riding a llama?:	she has llamas...yep wisconsinites are just that kool
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6:34pm:

You Are 50% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're addicted to love. You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it? Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships. Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself!

hells yea Bitches, v-day with the histroy project

11:18am: Birdies
LOL...my dad found a radio station that plays only nature sounds and its play the jungle sounds right now for the birds, they are like what the hell just happened and where the hell am i?...there looking around and its really cute. Haha. Thier so much fun!

11:06pm: Tuesday with my dad
So every teusday my dad and i got and do something together. Tonight we went to the mall of america and had dinner at famous daves. Then we went to see chronicles of narnia and sees as its december i cryed even hard then i would have at any other time. it was a great movie but i got me thinking about every thing...
When the breaths you take echo louder than the calling you answered
When the tears you shead will be the last you beautiful eyes will have to bare
When all is quite and you know your comfortable for the first time in a year
WHen a moment is to bitter to be sweet
And to calm to be bitter
To welcome to be bitter
To soothing to be bitter
When your here more than we may realize and gone more than we want
When we can look into the sky and feel you presence and see you beauty
You are my stars
My breath
And my tears
You are my comfort
And my bitter sweet love for what i can never have
You are my Mom

So i jusst felt like that on the way home so i thought it throuhg all the way home and this is the first draft of my little thingy. I dunno i just wrote it while doing chores so it need work but i know my mom would appreciate it in its roughest form.

oh yea and my dad and i came out from the movie and we where the only white people there, literally.
my dad goes "we went into the movie in minnisota, we came out of Narnia, and now we are in another strange land."
i love my dad he is cute!

ok then nighty night
With love,
Laura

7:46pm: hahaha
i hate tele-marketers. They are so dumb. so this guy call and i could tell it was a tele-marketer because there was delay before a voice so i was like
me- Hola, Que Tal?
and the voise goes- Is greg there?
me- Lo siento pero, greg no esta.
them- Excuse me...
me- Greg no esta, lo siento...lol
me- adios
them- umm....

haha i no it was dumb but it was also oddly saticfing

~laura

Oh yea...i hate when december suprises you...no wonder i was so tired today!

11:38am: hmmmm....
So i really need to be working right now but its just 4 more days until this hell is over with. In 3 more day i will be going into the best quarter ever, math, science, and spanish. So EASY! Yes! Thank god.

Well you're magic he said
But don't let it all go to your head
Well I bet if you all had it all figured out
Then you'd never get out of bed
No doubt
All the thing's that I've read what he wrote me
Is now sounding like the man I was hoping
To be
Keep on keeping it real
Cause it keeps getting easier, he'll see
He's the reason that I'm laughing
Even if there's no one else
He said, you've got to love yourself

You say, you shouldn't mumble when you speak
But keep your tongue up in your cheek
And if you stumble on to
You better remember that it's humble that you seek
You got all the skill you need,
Individuality
You got something
Call it gumption
Call it anything you want
Because when you play the fool now
You're only fooling everyone else
You're learning to love yourself

Yes you are

There's no price to pay
When you give and what you take,
That's why it's easy to thank you
You...

Let's say take a break from the day
And get back to the old garage
Because life's too short anyway
But at least it's better then average
As long as you got me
And I got you
You know we got a lot to go around
I'll be your friend
Your other brother
Another love to come and comfort you
And I'll keep reminding
If it's the only thing I ever do
I will always love
I will always love you
Yes you
I will always, always, always, always love
I will always, always love
I will always, always love, love

Jaon Mraz, Song for a friend

9:01am: i dunno what to call this one
last night i made really yummie corn chowder, sara and i have been craving it for like ever. here is the recipe

INGREDIENTS:
1/4 cup and 2 tablespoons diced bacon
3 medium potatoes, peeled and chopped
3/4 medium onion, chopped
1-1/2 cups water
2-1/4 cups cream-style corn
1-1/2 teaspoons salt
ground black pepper to taste
1-1/2 cups half-and-half

If you use bacon, i used buter instead, you put the bacon in a big pot adn cook it until crisp.
then you add the potatoes and onionsand cook for about 5 minutes. Then add water, Half-and-half, and corn. and season with salt and pepper. Bring to a boil and then turn down heat and let simmer until th potatoes are soft, about 20-25 minutes.

Serves about 6


It was pretty good and it is really easy!

Ha Ha ha
JOsh and jenna are the cutest.
this morning jenna woke me up at 6 and was like Its good morning time...i may be the only one that thinks thats cute but it was.
and when josh was going pea he peed on his hand, so he came running out and he was like oh no i peed on my hand...so it really does happen, then he was like there must be a hole in my penis, come help whooa. As you might guess penises are not really my speciality.
then last night in the gorcery store little jenna heard some old lady caughing so she ran up to her and hugged her and asked if she was ok...that little lady was so happy and laughed so hard, it was so cute!

oh i totally live for these to kids, they are my babies.

~laura